The Eternal Guest Room

I have not been doing so good with the posting lately. In a nutshell, I have been too busy – 6 weddings and almost 20 portrait shoots in the last 3 months, on top of a part-time job and life in general – and anything that wasn’t absolutely essential got left in the dust.

We’ve also been debating lately about what steps to take next. We’ve been throwing a few ideas around, weighing the pros and cons, and trying to find the solution that worked best for us, and for where we are in life right now.

We really want to move. We never intended to settle in Texas, and I’ve never been really happy here. For awhile, we talked about a “move-by” date – we decided to move in March. As soon as I shot my last booked wedding. This is also the reason we didn’t start IVF in May – I just felt wrong about pursuing IVF 9 months before a contracted wedding in which the bride had chosen me several years ago. So we pushed IVF from May to August. I guess this is a good thing, because it means we think it will work. But it does complicate matters. And then a friend asked me to shoot her wedding in Hawaii in May. So, we decided to push IVF back even further. End of year. But then we got my AMH results and decided that there wasn’t a huge rush – I’m not that old, and we don’t seem to be running out of time – so we thought that maybe we’d just wait until after moving (in March) to do IVF.

Then I went to my support group meeting, and everyone and their dog* (*exaggeration) was doing IVF. So I decided I couldn’t wait. Screw the weddings.

Ultimately, we reached a compromise (with ourselves, not each other, as we were pretty similar in our thoughts through this whole process): we will start IVF in October/November. Not sure exactly when, but I’ll contact the doctor in early September to find out what we need to do first and how the dates will fall. We’re definitely planning on doing this before the end of this year.

We’re excited. We can hardly wait. We’re feeling very hopeful. During a total of 6 hours in the car yesterday, we nailed down all of our names. We really think this might actually work.

Of course, it might not – but for now, I think it’s better to think about the positives than the “what-if’s.” At the very least, maybe it will finally give us some answers. Right now it’s just a matter of waiting for the months to pass.

In the meantime, we’re keeping busy. Looking forward to a visit from my best friends from college and a week-long 9-year anniversary trip to Mexico. I’m glad I have some fun things to look forward to to pass the time between now and IVF. We are so, so ready to try this.

I hope October hurries up.