It’s official.
Negative.
Another $900 down the drain, for nothing.
We had been really hopeful for this one. Really, really hopeful. It would have been so nice to have some good news. It would have been so wonderful to be done with this. It would have been such a relief to not have to endure another gut-wrenching mother’s day.
I’m having a hard time finding words. My mind is just sort of empty. Everything feels sort of surreal. I know these fail all the time, I know the first one doesn’t usually work, I know we have another chance…but none of that really matters at the moment.
I got the official call with the test results a few minutes ago, but I’ve known since yesterday morning. I’m mostly feeling pretty numb. I think I just can’t take the pain anymore. I’m giving myself the weekend to grieve, and then it’s time to start the process all over again.
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I am so sad for you. There are no words at times like this, wish I were closer so I could give you a hug and cry with you instead of here by myself at work with tears running down my face. I love you so very much………..
Oh hun. Seriously, I wish I could give you a hug. AF just showed for me today too. A grand down the drain. Isnt it just THAT much worse, failing a cycle, just to add losing a ton of money as well? I’m taking a cycle off. I need a break from all the drugs, from the forced bd’ing, from the inevitable sadness. Numb is the perfect word. I go back and forth from being numb and just plain angry. Ugg. This sucks. Feel free to email me if you ever wanna chat. Its funny how we’ve never met, yet we are going thru the same horrible crap. Bleh. What a crappy thing to have in common. ((hugs)) sandraandangel@hotmail.com
Hi Stacie,
You have found the right place in ICLW to connect and get support for what you are experiencing. No one will belittle a single month’s disappointment, even if you allow yourself more time to grieve. Most of us have experienced similar. I hope next month is the result you are looking for.
Lisa
Stacie I am so sorry please always know John and I are always here for you and Darek. Love you guys.
so very sorry. love you guys.
I love you both.
Dad
Ugh, I hate the BFN moment more than anything EVER. So sorry for you guys. It sucks.
damn it i’m all teary too. i am so sorry. wish i could help. love you guys lots
So sorry.
~ICLW~
I’m so sorry. Take this weekend to heal from the disappointment. Wishing you the best of luck the next go around.
Ugh. It just sucks. There’s no other way to say it. I’m sorry. This process just turns you inside out. 🙁
Do something nice for yourself this week. {{hugs}}
ICLW
I’m so sorry *hugs*
iclw
I’m so sorry to hear about your BFN. I’ll be sending whole bunches of good thoughts and prayers your way.
ICLW #98
Honestly, I think the first fail is one of the hardest. There is so much hope and anticipation put into it, that the pain of a BFN can be crushing. I am so sorry to hear that this IUI did not work. Just so sorry.
Hugs from ICLW #166
I am so sorry it was a negative. I hope you don’t have to go through much more to get your BFP.
Thank you for stopping by my blog I appreciate the words of encouragement.
ICLW (#70)
I’m sorry! ICLW